If I Close My Eyes

Look above where the angels dwell?

If I close my eyes, will I be there with them?

Will I touch the stars if I hold on to what I have?

Lost and found within myself,

If I close my eyes, will my tears bring any sense?

When will it all come to pass?

Shadows of what is…

Is all that is left, if I close my eyes will you close yours?

Will your heart beat as mine does forever?

Inspired by a song I love "Close My Eyes Forever".
Exploring my own mortality, what if I don't wake up tomorrow? 

The Animal in Man

They can kill our bodies but not our souls,

This splattered blood isn’t our dreams being

Drained from every essence of what makes us us.
They can sew our lips tight but our voices will always get louder.

The scars, blisters and burns on our necks

Are our pride, a victory to show how we overcame.

Through all this, you see us as all things bad,

Black or White skin; we are all the epitome of the gods.

Beautiful People (Haiku)

Beautiful people

Are life's broken symphonies,

Yet we hear them not.

Brothers and sisters

Forced to say goodbye again,

This time forever.

Beautiful people

lost in a wrath they know not

As we watch them soil.

The young, old and bold,

victims of man's endless greed,

Must strive for this life.

Beautiful people,

They are just that, beautiful

Just like you and me. 

My Face

My face is all they see, 

They stare and wonder not much,
They see me kind...
And hopeful and everything they want to see.

Sometimes the mirror lies,
My face is a divisive tool that fools,
It has a story, not a neat one but it tells who I am,
My face is not fine yet you look and judge
And fit me in your own little image!

My face is a coincidence,
A yinyang of both good and bad,
I look at it but I fail to see me,
Like the shores of an ocean it changes and loses shape.
But it doesn't change who I am inside...
My face is false and may have no grace,
It may not even hold pride for the person I am.

Sometimes it is as sunken as the stones beneath the waters,
Sometimes it is as high as the clouds and I like it then,
Sometimes it wonders between the line of what makes me me,
Yet through all this, I know that I am who I think I am.

Reflections

Ocean waves groove to the beats
And tones of an unspoken breeze,
Like whispers it all fades to silence,
Life drifts silently with a heart untouched
I wonder how it ever came to this
When sweetness became too sweet
And when life gave me its best,
I closed my eyes and lost it all.

Dazing in whirling reflections
Of the inner ache
That gains life when I have no mind to kiss,
No moon to hold and no heart to keep,
I wonder how it came to this
Beat down like unwilling drums
A heart beat has never been this numb
Crushed in the essence of its core
My mind has never been this lost
Still I wonder how it came to this.

A Gory Enchantment

With death before my eyes
I sigh and hope it falls now,
This blood in the snow
Has been shed to relinquish
This hopeless devotion.
The darkness will embrace
My lust to burn in its kill.

A gory stain escapes
From my mind…these weeps
Will bear no delight.
Veins pumping man’s iniquity
Pours more fury in the heart
I once had…
Winds blown by the dead
Dry the gruesome fears
Of life’s long and dark trail.

With this disgraceful odium
Of a life gone wrong
I know I’ll die alone:
Grace will forget my face,
Death will give me one
And pain will offer me its
Promise of the twilight.
I’ll be forgotten by grace
And remembered by wickedness
With all its shame of night.

In this dungeon of spikes
I’ll bleed to slay
My inner desires
To end this thick carnage
My tongue only knows blood
My mind only sees tenderness
Nothing seems right
Here in the fortress of evil
The sovereign of the underworld
Speaks through my bleeding ears.
A heart charred by life’s
Deceptive nature
Will beat with the rhythm of
The dying flurry owl’s howl.

Doused in its spiral wrath
I cannot flee from this confusing supremacy,
My skin melts with this gruesome embrace,
Tonight I’ll feast upon the flesh of this eve,
As daylight stalls this wretchedness
The cracks of my mind smolder
The last bit of breath my soul had…

Embracing Death’s Woes

Frozen inside still I
Bleed from your broken kiss,
A touch of ice embraces me
With a soaring sting of
An eternal affliction,
This forsaken truth
You’ve embraced charges
With a rage of lifelessness,
I ‘m left powerless
With the tears that are
The fragments of my soul;
My fortitude is forever gone.

When love stands still
Life is lost and grief is gained
When a man cries,
It’s all because it hurts
His soul’s core to touch
A love he once had,
His tears will force the
Sunflower face towards
The moonshine
Her voice will be captive of
The ocean’s pressure
And she’ll die like the waves
Of her emotions…

This immortal emptiness
Nurtures its ruins when night
Overcame life’s splendor
And every endeavor
I took to keep us away
From sorrow’s claws…
In this endless soreness
Bore our futile child.
These Hallow feelings
Will be my only foe.

These tears cannot reveal
My angst of numbness
That took me captive
When your life was denied:
My will to be departed with you,
This shame of life pierced through
My hopes like a lance of knights
And stole my lone essence,
Now I’ve got to face
This war of woes on my on.

Tears

Eyes drenched in its sadness

Bare this strain of madness,

Before and after this darkness,

The tears of terror and shadiness

Fall to relinquish these cries of sulkiness,

These tears are my weakness…

The drain of strength

Is a gain to death,

Again I rest this sorrow's truth

In the lantern's path,

Eyes see only a wrath

Of an unholy faith,

A union of fear and an oath,

To moan when life bequeaths

Souls of the broken seethe,

Their unsoiled taste...

Like dew it all wastes

Away from eyes so fast

All grief flows in haste

Through them reality becomes fate

That one must not hate

Tears to quench this wait

Tears to break a quest to feast

Eyes drowned in its fall

Like the rain it calls

A name known to all

In the earth it stalls

All happiness as silence befalls.

Endless Hope

If I should take my life

Through this great strife,

I’ll pray for my wife

That God should keep her safe.

If I should die in my sleep

I hope you won’t weep,

Let your emotions sweep

Through like a fall into the deep

Where I lay in my mortal sleep.

If the moon doesn’t shine,

Don’t worry for you are still mine,

Together we taste like sweet wine

Whenever we dine

In this fine night’s divine vine.

If last night’s kiss was the last,

Know that in me the lust

We share will always come first,

I’ll be that knight who clinches his fist

When they come to scrap your heart’s crust,

Then we’ll feast.

If the sun is out and I’m not home

Be strong, tomorrow I’ll come

Like the rain to tame this mortal storm,

But tomorrow can only be told by time

So I ask you to melt this rime.

If my heart stops beating tonight

Teach me how to fight

And make me right.

Bring to me your light,

I ask for you to hold me tight.

Silent Echoes

In the night she dies,

In her mind she dies,

She watches the other

Children play...Her only

Game is the agony of being alone,

Her only home is the pain that

Mauls her mind.

She begs to be loved but they all

Walk away as heart bleeds from

The solitude of their making,

All She wanted was to be loved

Like every other child she knows,

In the rain she feels the pain

Of the coldness and hunger.

Fear befriends her as night falls,

She sleeps alone where no one knows

Her,She dies alive as she walks the

Streets all by her lonely.

Broken Emotions

These cracks on my skin are the sores
Of your broken kisses,
My numb emotions are the scars you left
Behind,

I walk following the blood trail of my mind,
My crimson tainted thoughts speak the pain
I now call home,

Look into my eyes?
Do you see what I’ve become?
I look in the mirror and hate what I’ve
Turned into.

Cry for me so that I quench
My thirst with your pure tears,
Let the rain come and wash away my pain,
Embrace this lachrymal to heal me again,
Without you this isn’t who I want to be.

No More

A thousand times my pain has slayed me,
A million times I’ve lost me,
A hundred years I’ve lived trying to be you,
In you I saw a new me, a man of lost cause.
No more pain
No more hurting.
It all ends tonight,
On this cliff of where the gods rest,
I’ll end it all.

Last night I died in my dreams
It is a freedom granted by the angel
Of pain.
As I ask for God to send me an angel,
I also beg to breathe my last.
As I walk this walk of twinges,
I beseech to love on more soul.
No more me
No more tears
No more fear

As I look above for answers…
I lose this fight for to be free,
Free from all known iniquity
And other vices of Satan.
As I close my eyes,
I pray you too won’t sleep tonight.
Let not the gory glory take me away,
Let your will be done my lord.
No more…
No more…

An Ingress To Death Lurks

Twinkling eyes of a lost boy

Stare fiercely in the dark,

Like a shadow of the night

He silently craws

To the depth of fear, the only mother

He has ever known.

The tears in his eyes are the consequence

Of his ghastly fate…

Each day his virtuousness is slain before

The ogling souls.

Like a trapped soul he remains tormented

By the thoughts of the sun he never saw,

His sorrow takes a human voice

His soul wastes away as

They watch his void grow.

Sun dries his tears as he looks to

The same sky we all lay under,

The lantern lite streets

He calls home bare a cheerless

Fate that sees him day by day.

Arising from his sinister destiny

A rose he holds cuts his skin,

The truth cleaves to burn his face again,

“Cry no more my child,

Bleed not in vain.”

His slit wrists lead him

To a domicile where

He hurts no more.

The Little Devil In Me

Again I wake up away from home

Like a lost soul I shriek for reality

To undo this obvious confusion,

I walk on a street paved with skulls and bones,

The road is covered by a steady flow of blood

Amid flesh and skin.

”Who did this?”

The little voice in me questions.

The crimson rain, the pain only gains more

Affliction to my already dented soul,

Now I sit with my head on the railway line

Waiting for the beast that craws there to come and steal

This mistake for a life I hate to live.

Another heart bleeds, another mother moans,

Another day of sheer destruction befalls us.

How did I become this…this unfeeling animal?

Somewhere in this human shell,

I find myself lost deep inside me.

At night, the little voice in me tells me to take lives:

To separate body and soul of they that are pure at

Heart, she tells me to kill again and again.

I now know why I wake up with blood in my hands.

Unloved

 A nymph though she is the mirrors

In her mind reflect that which shes not,

A feud between love and hate resides

In her emotionless mind as she sits

Thinking what they all hate.

Out of body and out of mind

Her sorrow leaves her faceless…

They were all too busy for her…

She couldn't take it anymore…

The deception was too overwhelming,

She had to do it…

They cant believe what she did,

She’s not hurting anymore.